thanks school for bringing me down AGAIN. you sure are really good at doing that.
this week i had two tests, one test tuesday and one today. for my tuesday test i studied for the majority of the day at Border's with a friend. i was studying so much for this test that i didn't even bother to start studying for the test i had today. i was pretty confident that i was going to do well on my test on tuesday
i go to class on tuesday and i take my test. after i was done, i turned it in and i felt SO good. i thought to myself: "man i think i did pretty well!". i couldn't wait to see my grade. i was so happy with the fact that i thought i did pretty well that i even gave my mom a call to let her know how everything went.
you think this story gets better from here on. but it doesn't.
after the test, my friends and i compared our answers. i realized that i made few careless mistakes. even with the mistakes, i thought i would be fine. so at this point i was still pretty happy with everything.
my professor posts the exams online with the correct answers so i go online to check. not only did i make careless mistakes, but i got more answers wrong ON TOP of my mistakes. i was so upset and embarrassed with myself. embarrassed that i got so excited over nothing.
i don't want to even get to talking about today's test. that's a totally different story.
there isn't really a moral to this story but just something i wanted to simply write about. i wanted to let out some frustration with school. i know it's still pretty early in the semester and i can always work harder and what not. and you know what? i AM even more determined to work harder. i WILL work harder. i am tired of school constantly bringing me down. the one time i was so happy and confident with a TEST grade, i just get crushed. why is that? and i am not the type of person who says: "man! i think i did really well that test!". when i came to college i never really used that line. the ONE freaking time i was so confident that i did well, like extremely confident, school once again brought me down.
a big sigh.
