baby it's cold outside.

taking a little study break from my finals. i have been at a Starbucks everyday since Sunday to study for my finals this week. because it's holiday season, Starbucks has WONDERFUL holiday flavored drinks. studying with a nice warm cup of Starbucks makes so relaxed.

so much on my mind other than finals.. haven't blogged in awhile so i thought i would just do some writing on here. here are just a few things on my mind:

-this is my LAST month serving in Children's Ministry. serving has been a wonderful experience and words cannot express how grateful i am to been able to serve in the Children's Ministry. through the good AND bad, i learned SO much since September 2009. believe it or not, serving in Children's Ministry EVERY Sunday helped me keep steady in my walk with God. BUT that's a whole different story..

-as EXCITED as i am of transferring, i am so nervous and scared. now that my last semester at Kennesaw is basically over, i'll be at UGA very very soon. after winter break, i'll be heading to Athens, which i will be calling my new home. i already have a WONDERFUL group of brothers and sisters there that i am looking forward to spend time with, i got to meet some awesome new people not too long ago, and also reunite with some old friends! with all that said, why am i still so nervous and scared!?

-everyone go get a Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha from Starbucks before the holiday season is over. SO GOOD, i promise it's worth your money. i have been getting this same drink since Sunday and not tired of it yet. i invested in a Starbucks coffee tumbler today. HEHE. it was a very spontaneous buy. i can't wait to start drinking Starbucks in my wonderful tumbler. little things in life make me SO happy, can you tell!? :D HEHE.

okay. i really have to go back to studying. i wish everyone the BEST OF LUCK on their finals!! finish the semester STRONG! and keep warm everyone! it's SO cold right now! where did this cold come from!? it was warm not too long ago and now it's FREEZING. georgia weather you never cease to amaze me. you are so weird but it's okay. anyways, back to studying i go :D bye bloggy world!

struggling.

my head is telling me some things, the world is telling me some things, and God is telling me some things.

it's getting hard to trust in God when other things are constantly saying different 'some things'. i don't even know if that made sense. but it sounded good in my head.

how do i overcome this?

looking back ..

i miss summer 2010 so much.

when i have a bad day, i think about the past summer and i start to smile.

"don't forget Sue all the amazing-ness that took place this summer."

because i seem to keep forgetting especially when school gets in the way.

i have been in many different moods these days.

even through these different moods, God still found ways to give me small encouragements.

who doesn't want some lovin' from God?

this post is very random, i know.

but i really wanted to write for some reason.

once again discouraged.

thanks school for bringing me down AGAIN. you sure are really good at doing that.

this week i had two tests, one test tuesday and one today. for my tuesday test i studied for the majority of the day at Border's with a friend. i was studying so much for this test that i didn't even bother to start studying for the test i had today. i was pretty confident that i was going to do well on my test on tuesday

i go to class on tuesday and i take my test. after i was done, i turned it in and i felt SO good. i thought to myself: "man i think i did pretty well!". i couldn't wait to see my grade. i was so happy with the fact that i thought i did pretty well that i even gave my mom a call to let her know how everything went.

you think this story gets better from here on. but it doesn't.

after the test, my friends and i compared our answers. i realized that i made few careless mistakes. even with the mistakes, i thought i would be fine. so at this point i was still pretty happy with everything.

my professor posts the exams online with the correct answers so i go online to check. not only did i make careless mistakes, but i got more answers wrong ON TOP of my mistakes. i was so upset and embarrassed with myself. embarrassed that i got so excited over nothing.

i don't want to even get to talking about today's test. that's a totally different story.

there isn't really a moral to this story but just something i wanted to simply write about. i wanted to let out some frustration with school. i know it's still pretty early in the semester and i can always work harder and what not. and you know what? i AM even more determined to work harder. i WILL work harder. i am tired of school constantly bringing me down. the one time i was so happy and confident with a TEST grade, i just get crushed. why is that? and i am not the type of person who says: "man! i think i did really well that test!". when i came to college i never really used that line. the ONE freaking time i was so confident that i did well, like extremely confident, school once again brought me down.

a big sigh.

can't thank You enough.

just saying 'thank You' won't do.

thank You for always loving me and always providing.

i love You. mean it.

KASE has been on my mind a lot recently. i miss it so much. i miss the wonderful people. i miss Texas. i miss it all. i wish i can go back to that week. but on a brighter note, i can't wait for KASE '11. i guess it will be a smart idea to start saving up money now for the plane ticket :P

i started school this past week and for some reason it got me thinking A LOT about my future. now that i know what God has planned for me, the big question is- now how do i get there!? so many questions in my head that are wanting to be answered.. i already started looking at graduate schools that i were interested in and i made sure they had my program. i only looked at out-of-state graduate schools and i did that on purpose. i am not hating on georgia but i am ready to see a different part of life. the life outside of georgia. the only way to see that part of life is to get out of here.

i know i JUST started second year of college but time flies by. if i don't think about these things now, when am i going to? i am trusting on God and letting Him lead the rest of the way for me.

:)

God you are so good.

and now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
since You laid down Your life
the greatest sacrifice.

never forget Sue, never forget.

“i’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. letting go doesn’t mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren’t meant to be.”

out of sight.
out of mind.

Father.

Remember those walls I built
Well, they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Father I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Father I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
I'll never let sin and shame
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Father I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Father I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

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amazing how just a few words can change a meaning of a song.

getaway + frustration.

at times like these, i just wanna get away from everything.

school is so frustrating.
why why why.
school wise, this week had sucked.
everything else about this week was perfectly fine.
ate chick-fil-a many times this week.
and trust me when i say many times.
the weather all week has been just beautiful.
i missed the sun so much.
it's nice to have you back mister sun.
and please stay.
it is just school that made me go crazy this week.
i hate working so hard for something.
and you don't get the results at the end.
it always brings me down.
it should make me want to work harder.
but it's hard to think so positive.
especially when other people bring you down while you're trying to bring yourself back up.
blah.
i am hoping for an awesome weekend.
i don't want to start a stinky week and ending it stinky as well.
y el fin.

to end on a very very very positive note:
11 more days till Glee.
i cannot wait.
i have waited so long for this month to come.